Is it possible that some of us are destined to live in a constant state of chaos?
If so, then I'm definitely one of those people.
Granted, at this moment I'm dealing with MAJOR life changes, but I feel like I've been living in a perpetual limbo over the last months (ok, years).
I want to know how people do it differently. How do they have it so together? Do they actually do it differently, or are they just better at faking it than I am?
I don't own a home, I don't (currently) have a job, I don't have a plan, and I honestly don't know what my life will look like a year from now. Aaaah...chaos!!! It's like I'm trapped in "temporary" (which I would guess is a lot like purgatory). Never quite settled, never sure what's next, no set agenda - just...making due...existing.
It's a constant feeling of being unsettled, and I'm starting to get sick of it. I crave routine, I crave stability, and I'd give anything to be sitting here complaining about how boring and predictable my life has become.
I have to expect that at some point, I will begin to make sense of my life. Things will fall into place, regularity will be established, and I'll look back and laugh about how scattered I was......I hope.
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