It wasn't until I got an email from my mom today commenting on the absence of blogs that I realized that I completely skipped over Thankful Thursday last week.
I suppose it's because I haven't wanted to be thankful. I'm tired of thankful being such hard work!
I don't want to be thankful. I want to wallow. I want to mope. I want to sit around feeling bitter.
I'm bitter about all the things that I don't have control over.
I'm upset by the feeling of wanting things but not being able to get them.
Wow, do I sound like I'm about 4 years old or what?
But, alas, it's true. I'm frustrated, I'm tired of working hard and having nothing to show for it, and I wish upon wish that something, anything, would get just a little bit easier!
Yes, I have a wonderful husband. Yes, I have a job. Yes, I have a place to live.
Blah, blah, blah..
Sometimes isn't it just easier to feel bad about what we don't have than to feel good about what we do have?
It's something I need to work on. I don't like feeling jealous. I don't like feeling angry about where my life is. I don't like feeling as though I'm in a hole.
Life is good, I've had lots of blessings, and everything is happening for a reason...
I just need to remember it!
Girl, I could have written this post. I know just how you feel ... I'm in a major funk these days and just can't seem to get into the Christmas spirit. :( Hopefully, we'll both snap out of it ASAP!
ReplyDeleteI feel the same way sometimes rinnie.
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